My confession

Today is not another day.
Today is not a brand new day.
Today is just a day.

I lied yesterday when I meant to lie.
I said the truth when I meant to lie.

How I've divided my own for the truths I never said.
How I've multiplied my sorrows for the lies I never muted.

I've loved
I've loved him
He did love me
I can never know if he did

Today is the day when I confess I lied
I lied when I said I loved you
I lied when I promised the future that I never knew
I lied when I laid in your arms and promised you, my love.

Oh how much I lied.
Even when your body came into mine, I lied.
When your tongue caressed mine and mine felt it all, I lied.

Nothing was ever so intimate and unrepeatable, it was all a lie.
Non a kiss you gave I felt what I said I did.
Not your touches melt me the way I said they did.